Apparently Wisconsin, was only ever going to be our temporary summer home. We didn't have the ability to know this. Unpacked from our Iowa move to live here for awhile, only to feel as though the rug has been pulled out from under us. But in a good way.
This is not the End, It is the beginning. The beginning to more stabilty, not just for the boys, but for our entire family. Wishing for the strength to get through this move as I have not planned it. It is out of our control, flying at the speed of light. So many things racing in my head. It's hard to leave something when I feel so unfinished.
I know what it takes to move on. I know what it feels like to leave this all behind.
soon I will be sitting in an empty room trying to remember all the good things we had here. A little part of me wishing it wasn't so. A little part of me wanting to hold on to what I could never really have for long. Change is always hard, but even more so when you don't know what is on the other side. The unknown. How will our life in Ohio be better? Or just be different? so much wondering so, that I have taken every ounce of faith and put my trust in our Savior Jesus Christ to stand steady and take his hand as he leads us. To a place we know nothing about, but a place that is waiting for us.
The hardest part of ending this, is the starting over again. This is not the end. This is just the beginning. The beginning to something better, more permanent. More..... At least I hope. I need.
I need the strength to move on. To do this all over again. I know this is meant to be and the Howerton's will cease to be the wanderer's for a little while.
To those I have met along the way. I thank you. For your Love and service. Your friendship and your kind words pushing me through each day, Especially when the covers in my bed seemed a better place for me -it was each of you that have pulled me back out and made me smile.
Today is a new day, a better day. One I hope to keep for a while. Change can be good, especially when you least expect it.
Moving on.....Again.
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